Quote of the day:- 

• When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through

• People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.

• Emotions come and go and can't be controlled so there's no reason to worry about them. That in the end, people should be judged by their actions since in the end it was actions that defined everyone.a person can get used to anything if given enough time

• When you chase a dream, you learn about yourself. You learn your capabilities and limitations, and the value of hard work and persistence

I did not go anywhere tonight but just stay at home. So I was filling my Sunday night reading a favourite book of mine and listening to Jazz music.  I like reading book laying on my bed. It's relaxing and I feel that's the way I like when I am reading. but sometimes I fall asleep XD. But It is the most comfortable and gets my mind relaxed and ready for bed. 

If I sit somewhere and read, I would have a feeling like I am studying for an exam or something and it's not really an enjoyable experience for me. I think my bed is the only place I read my books. And I would have all my pillows surrounding me so that I could be more comfortable.

JAzz music is perfect and great with a good book. It helps a mood even. I like to set the mood with some soft Jazz music, played low, just to keep me company. I don't have to worry about voices being a distraction, and it completely helps when setting the mood of the story. :) 

This is one of my most favourite Jazz song sing by Ono Lisa named "I WISH YOU LOVE". Lisa Ono sang one of the best versions of this song. (Kindly pause the songs before you click the video below)

I believe that we are who we choose to be. Nobody is going to
 come and save you; you’ve got to save yourself. Nobody is
 going to give you anything; you’ve got to go out and fight for it.
 Nobody knows what you want except for you. And nobody will 
be as sorry as you if you don’t get it. So, don’t give up on your
 dreams.

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you’ve waited for nothing.

Life doesn't stop.

The more you hide your feelings for someone,
the more you fall for them.

You see,” he says to the girl, “you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see; you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too; even when you’re in the dark, even when you’re falling.”

He wants to be with her. And she, whether she’ll admit it or not, wants to be with him, too. And yet they’re not together.

What would the world be like if we all had the ability to feel that someone is missing us? Like when someone is 10,000 miles away from you and they miss you so much, to the point where you actually feel it inside you. Imagine: you could be sitting there, drinking a cup of hot chocolate, and then suddenly have the ability to realize, “Hey, someone out there really misses me right now.”

The essence of life is not being perfect, impressing people, or succeeding at everything. The essence of life is simply making mistakes and learning from them, surrounding yourself with people that love you when you’re being yourself, and getting through the failures so that you can continue improving.

Quote of the day:-

• Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose

• Yesterday is history, Today is a gift, and Tomorrow is a mystery. Live each day as though it were your last, with the things that are truly going to last.

• You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.

• Life is what we make of it. We can achieve everything and climb the highest mountain if we simply remain positive even in the darkest moments.

Start with this:

Life - Was going through ups and downs for the past few months but things getting on track slowly. Appreciating the people around giving me hands when I fall. I believe in prayers and I know God always place those people to me and help me. *heart*

Work - is alright. Getting very busy soon "i think". Overall, still OK. Had a HUGE misunderstanding between my colleagues and me. Because I'm a quiet type of person. I mean if I close with that person, I talk; but if I'm not close with that person, I stay quiet. So, their first impression on me was cool, "sombong"-I'm those kind of girl who very proud of myself, those girl who pretend to be friend with them but at the back report everything to boss. Today, we confront everything out and our misunderstanding has been settled! Now, we joke, we talk crap, we gossip, we are on the "same boat" and protecting each other LOL! Communication is very very important between colleagues to build a good relationship!!

Family - They are the source that make me stand up again! No matter how bad the situation you are going through, family gives the the strength and go through with me. All I want to say is, I love them!

Relationship - Not thinking too much about it as my main focus is on my career!

I didn't know a person can be that evil and EGO. I know its all past.I should have forget and forgive. But somehow this person just RUINED everything I did and I get the blame for NO REASON! Her eyes are growing on the top of her head!! 眼睛长在头顶上, 目中无人，自高自大

So many times we regretted, we missed out those little things around us. It's all because we never too care about it. Slow down your path.

May be that's all for today!

Quote of the day:-

• We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets.

• You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.

• I live to succeed, not to please you or anyone else.

Hello I’m a little bored today. Daddy went out with his friends. Mommy went to Taiwan. I'm the one and only person in the house T.T I need to talk. So here’s a pointless entry LOL! This post will be the most meaningless post cause I’m neither emo nor happy nor sad nor anything.

I’m not unhappy, i’m not depressed, i’m just.

That’s the thing, I don’t know what I am right now. I’m in a limbo of feelings, neither here nor there, floating in this weird realm of nothingness. Okay fine. I might have exaggerated a little about how I’m feeling. I’m perfectly fine, and this is just an on and off feeling I’ve been experiencing.

Oh My Gosh! I cannot "tahan" looking at myself getting fatter especially the face. My face!!! Why my face and my body are not proportionate bloody hell! I would prefer a fat face with a fat..like really fat body rather than aiyooooo bloody hell don't know how to say! Which one do you prefer? Fat face or fat body?? 

I know many of my friends are stucked in a situation where they can't get the job they want. All I want to say is please don't give up. Never! Not because I'm showing off my job nor said is easier than do. I was floating around for 6 months plus before i got one. Even if it's not part of your desired career pathway but it would be a good starting point in not asking money from your parents right? Trust me. Even if you got the job you want you'll still whinge about something else. That's life!

Living in a big city is good when you have close friends hanging around. I envy big cities for only two reasons: shopping and dining =p but at this stage a bit difficult for me to live in big cities with zero savings *cries* That's why have to live in Tawau to practice self-control before i totally lost it at all LOL! Speaking of close friends i miss my friends again =( why you girls have to live so farrrrr awayyyyyy from me. Don't you know i miss all the joy and laughter that we had before!!

Let me introduce Godiva to you ladies! Your best friend FOREVER!!!! Your best friends during your bad days Hahahaha!! When you are left with nothing in this world but money Lady Godiva can be your one and only friend =) I'm a big fan of chocolates. Trust me! Try this one. It's quite pricey but worth the money ladies!

I think I need to improve my Malay language so that I'm capable to communicate with my colleagues. They told me, "kamu ni temperang betul." Haaaa??!! What is "temperang", I asked. "Temperang ialah sombong", they answered. Sigh! Is not I don't want join them and chit chat with them. Sometimes their speaking speed was too fast, I hardly catch it. Speaking Malay language makes me realize how terrible my Malay language is. So I think I really need to improve my Malay language skills and speaking too! I try many time to speak in Malay .but i can't speak it fluently.

This is the beginning of a new day. You have been given this day to use it as you will. You can waste it or use it for good. What you do today is important because you’re exchanging a day of your life for it. When tomorrow comes, this day will be gone forever. In its place is something that you have left behind. Let it be something good. Hope that tomorrow is a new day with a new feeling. That something different, better, is out there waiting.

I’ve learned a lot these past few years, that friends sometimes are not forever & true love does not always last. The good memories stay with you but the good moments go by fast. But someone will always be there, someone that honestly does care.

Never think “what if?” Everything happens for a reason. So when things don’t work out, shake it off and realize it wasn’t worth it like you thought it was.

People spend their whole lives trying to live up to other people’s expectations and being told what to do. I say screw that – be free. Do what you want, go where you want, and reach for the sky because life has no limits or boundaries. You only get one chance to do all the things that life offers you. Have no enemies, no regrets, no fears, and then you’ll have really lived life.

Too bad that people can’t switch problems. 
Because nobody knows how to solve their own problems,
 but they always know how to solve another’s.

You’re gonna fly with every dream you chase. You’re gonna cry, but know that that’s okay. Sometimes life’s not fair, but if you hang in there, you’re gonna see that sometimes bad is good. We just have to believe things will work out like they should. Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me, you’re gonna be.

Quote of the day:-

• Destiny is for losers. It’s just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen.

• I don’t want to sit around and hope good things will happen. I want to make them happen. I want to be in control of my own destiny.
  

The weather was SO HOT today! I know I live in a tropical country but the weather just keep getting hotter and hotter everyday. What is it today? 37 degrees Celsius? It is so hot today that you can make an omelet under the sun. Hot weather makes my oily face turns more oily T_T. Sometimes I feel itchy all over my face when I got under sun too often.. Just what went wrong with our planet now? I guess that is what it meant by Global Warming huh. Hmmm... I think global warming is kicking in. I wish the rainy season will come fast and wash away the heat. 

I had claypot yee mee for my lunch in such a hot weather. And I was sweating like I was just back from a few kilometers marathon. I feel impatient uncomfortable and irritable because the whole body full sweat. Gosh! I am not a hot weather person. The hot weather makes me feel lazy to even step out of the my office! 

I am not a cold weather person neither LOL! I only like that weather where it is in between the hot and cold where it is not too hot but not too cold, you can still go out side without a coat. That the type of weather I like. It makes me feel happy in side and I like that. So I prefer cool one, not too hot and not too cold. If too hot, I don't wanna go out; If too cold, I'm afraid I will be frozen like ice LOL!

A true friend is always there for you,but a fake friend is only there when they want something from you.

Everything you have been told is a lie. Things don’t happen for a reason. They just occur and you must deal with it, good or bad.  People will always leave you because the potential for better is there. They do not care if they have to step on top of you to get to euphoria. Everybody has somebody they use. And everybody, everybody lies. They all get mad and say things they don’t mean. But once they are said, they are out there, unable to be shoved back down your throat. Watch your tongue, but even more importantly, watch your back. There is always someone standing there ready to stab you.

Quote of the day:-

 

• Friends and peers come and go,changing with the seasons of life, but family is forever

• Treasure every moment that you have with your family. Time is a coin you can spend only once. Use it, invest it, make it count, and treasure it more because you shared it with your family. Special enough to have your time and remember time waits for no one. 
  

I joyfully treasure each moment with my family now.  Maybe last time while I was still studying, most of my time was surrounded by my friends, I honestly don't really know the actual meaning of "treasure the moment with family."

Now, I understand, I know! My family knows me better than anyone else and they love me for who I am. They might disagree with me from time to time. Sometimes they are even quite voice out their disagreements. When I'm heading out to be with friends, I already know the details my parents must have. Where are you going? What will you be doing? Who will you be doing it with? When will you be home?  The "past" me will think that they are nagging me and asking me too much, I feel annoyed, I feel uncomfortable with the "nagging & question" role so much of the time. But the "present" me, I understand their situation. I know they care me so much because I'm their daughter. I should feel blessed but not annoyed. I need to show them I can be trusted. So when they ask me, I just answer their question accordingly. 

They are the source of my greatest joy. No matter where we go in life or what we end up doing, we will always have each other. We are getting older and older each year which means our parents are getting older and older as well. Thus, we must treasure every single moment with our family since life is too short and no one really knows when he or she would die. We as a human need care, I need care, so parents need their children's care as well. Don’t you just agree with me?

My dad is a workaholic. He rarely join us to go travel. Either my mum and I or my mum, sisters and I. I remembered the last time we had our family trip was 3 years ago. And now, both sisters are studying abroad. We hardly have a time to gather together. So if you ask me what I most want to do now, my answer would be travel to other country with my parents and sisters.

 I'm not saying i can't live without you, because i can. I'm just saying i don't want to."

Just because it didn't last forever doesn't mean it wasn't worth while

One of the hardest parts in life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder

heart on a line

There's a huge difference between giving up and letting go.
Giving up is sacrificing what was rightfully yours, and letting go is forgetting what never was

Take chances, alot of them. because honestly, no matter where you end up and with who, it always ends up the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel. always be you, and be okay with it

God gave use two eyes, two ears, two arms, two legs, two feet, two hands, but he only gave use one heart, do you want to know why? Because he gave the other one to someone else and it's your job to find it

Worrying gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing to say to someone who means the world to you, especially when goodbye isn't what you want

Have a piece of my heart <3

Just when you think things can't get any worse; they do. But i've learned life is like an hour glass sooner or later everything has to hit rock bottom but all you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything all around for you

 

Quote of the day:-

• 越多事情你越想得到它，反而往往会远离你，正所谓凡事不要太过强求 
• 在这个世界上，凡事不可能一帆风顺，事事如意，总会有烦恼和忧愁。当不顺心的事时常萦绕着我们的时候，我们该如何面对呢?“随缘自适，烦恼即去”。其实，随缘是一种进取，是智者的行为，愚者的借口。何为随?随不是 跟随，是顺其自然，不怨恨，不躁进，不过度，不强求；随不是随便，是把握机缘，不悲观，不刻板，不慌乱，不忘形；随是一种达观，是一种洒脱，是一份人生的成熟，一份人情的练达。

• Life can be tricky. Life can be sticky. Life can be fun. Life can be sad. But one thing is for sure, life changes like the weather, and we can either “go with the flow” or fight it.

Happy Easter everyone.
I wish you all the happiness, hope you will have a great time with your family and friends. Easter fills us with hope, joy and warmth. It is a time to get together with friends, family and loved ones and celebrate this joyful time. May you all have a wonderful day, no matter if you're celebrating something or not.

Here is a short conversation I would like to share:-

Girl: were best friends right?
Boy: yes, of course.
Girl: So be honest with me, who do u like?
boy: no one. i love someone
girl: Ohh, she must be very lucky
Boy: Definitely. I've loved her since i met her
Girl: Really? well, since were best friends, i wanna meet her. Go call her
boy: oh okay.
Boy takes out his phone, dials her number and phones her
girl:Wait, hold on I think I'm getting a call
*answers the phone*
Girl: hello?
Boy: i love you.

Went to Dreamland Coffee House for dinner last night. Dreamland's food is good but the service was really bad! I ordered Grilled Pork Chop. It costs me RM13.00. The taste? So-so only. I found the pork chop too dry and overly sour. We asked the bill for about 4 times. And the boss was telling us that the cashier was in the toilet. The way she spoke to us was so unfriendly! WTF! Hey, you're the boss, you can replace the cashier to calculate how much is the total of the bill right. What if the cashier was in the toilet for 30 mins? that means we have to sit and wait for her to come out?! Does it make sense? One more thing I would like to complain is they love to return the cash with lot of coins with all the 10sen.2 dollar=20x10sen. Sigh! They purposely wanna do it that way because they know mostly customers won't take the coins away and give it to them as tips. But even their service is bad, lot of people still choose to go there and have their meal. Maybe is because Tawau don't have much choices. Hmmmm.....

Chill at Vision golf at night with some friends. I love this place. REALLY small place, but the music was fantastic! The place surrounded by Jazz music. A bar with nothing else to offer but great Jazz. Go here for music but not the bar. I can think of no better place to go hear great jazz music in Tawau. Here is the only place. We had a wonderful time drinking in the Jazz soft music all around us.

I'm a big time "Milk-tea Addict". No matter what anybody says about caffeine, I just can't forego it. Had a slice of Walnut cake this afternoon at home with a cup of hot milk tea =)

Life is so much better with good cake =)

So you can imagine my joy when I came across this cake. The walnuts added a crunch which gave a lovely new dimension for the cake. I love the moistness of the cake and the crunchiness of the walnuts =)

Quote of the day:-

• 遇到有人当面辱骂你，以拳头击打你，以石头丟你，
  以木棍打你或以武器袭击你時，你应把世间的一切欲望与顾虑拋开，
  並且这样训练自己：
  「我的心将不动摇，我将不说恶语，我将以沒有瞋恨的仁慈心悲悯他人，
  为他人的利益着想。」如此训练自己。

  • Sometimes you have to stand alone to prove that you can still stand........

    • Men often give love for sex, women often give sex for love. 

"Men often give love for sex, women often give sex for love." for me, it's not true at all. besides, how can a man really "give love" if he's really just in it for sex? that isn't love. In real love, the man gives the woman what she wants and the woman gives the man what he wants because each loves the other. Giving without calculating on the return.

Guys and girls out there, it is not that difficult to show someone you care. Show concern while you still can, while you're still allowed to do so. Regrets often arrive too late and too little can be done about it.

Hmm... there is nothing much that I can say about my life now. If you ask me for one word that best describe my life now, I would have to say "happy". I don't know why or the reason that makes me feel this way. Even I'm still single. All I know is that I start to feel the happiness, taste the happiness and and see all the happiness that surrounds my life. I have the job I love, Family that I love, my sweet home, my lovely friends. The only thing left is my other half. But at this moment, I'm not that keen to get into a relationship yet. 随缘吧。。。呵呵  Being single isn’t bad. What is bad is giving up hope on finding that someone special

There are many facts in our lives. Some of the facts are just undeniable, unquestionable. Some are just plain truth. But this one is different. It's strange. But then, what is stranger that the human mind. The human mind and brain is the strangest and most complex subject in this planet. What do you have to say about this fact?

Most of the time, we make those who care for us cry. On the other hand, we often cry for those who won't and never will care for us. Worse still..The ones we care about are those that won't and never will cry for us.
 
Hmm... what do you think? Sounds like what you're going through now? Well this is strange but true... believe it... or not..hahahaa...