Quote of the day:-

• 好好的管教你自己，不要管别人。

• 当你快乐时，你要想，这快乐不是永恒的。当你痛苦时你要想这痛苦也不是永恒的。 

• 你什么时候放下，什么时候就没有烦恼。

• 你要包容那些意见跟你不同的人，这样子日子比较好过。你要是一直想改变他，那样子你会很痛苦。要学学怎样忍受他才是。你要学学怎样包容他才是。 
• 一个人的快乐，不是因为他拥有的多，而是因为他计较的少。

• 如果你不给自己烦恼，别人也永远不可能给你烦恼   
• 不要期望生活是公平的。
• 不要自寻烦恼。 

I love diving, I love it when I'm under water I hear only my own breathing, I love it when I can move freely with no gravity, I love it when I know I'm exploring 2/3 of the world. Seeing all the interesting marine lives is a bonus to me. I'm not an advance diver, I appreciate breathe I'm taking underwater, complaining the buoyancy and safety stop is just for the sake of complaining :P in actual fact, I don't really care as long as I have m nitrogen gas :D

Can you dive if you can't swim? The answer for the question is still highly arguable. Some people say definitely can't dive if you can't swim because when taking the dive certification there will be swimming test. So you must be able to swim for 200m continuously. But some people say you don't need swimming skill to dive. A friend of mine said that when you swim you float, but when you dive you sink, so you don't need to swim to sink. Well... before I give my opinion, let me share about my dive experience.

Can I swim? Basically I would say I can't swim. I never swim in the sea. This is a very sad fact because I love beach so much. I like the waves and the sand at the beach. But I never swim there!! Do you think that EVERYBODY can snorkel even if they can't swim? Well the thing is, you can always snorkel while wearing floating jacket. So, it's easy, yeah? Hmmm...this is embarrassing, but I still cannot feel comfortable while snorkeling. 

Back to my diving story. I could do all the skills: breathing, the cleaning of the mask, finding the regulator back if it was off the mouth, the buoyancy (well...I'm not too good at this, cause I can't sink easily and float easily). We had to carry all our equipments, except the tank. Thanks God. I don't think I could carry the thank :P One of the frightening time in my life was when we had to jump out of the boat carrying the heavy tank which I could even carry while I was sitting on the boat, wearing the BCD (with the tank being attached). The flip-back-entering-the-water style was so SCARY! You don't need anybody to push you, you will be pulled to the water because of the heavy tank on your back. But anyway, I did it and it was OK, not as scary as I thought :P Then the boat left us.

After the boat left, I was pushed away by the wave. The instructor told me to swim towards their direction. I tried and tried... but I couldn't. I was swept further and further from them. I got panicked. I breathe in panic cause the wave kept pushing me away and the water splashed to my face. I was holding my friend's arm tightly, I went down the water. My friend offered his hand to take care of me because we were supposed to be 'buddies'. We saw turtles, stingray, cuttlefish, yellow snapper, mantis peacock shrimp, box fish, nudi nudi and nudis and some 'unique' fish which I have no ideas about the name. It was actually nice experience even though I never let go my friend's hand during the diving. Lol. I wouldn't let his hand go because I wasn't sure about my buoyancy skill. He even had to pull me hard to go further down to the bottom to the sea. How deep did we go? I never asked, but my friend said it was probably depth of open water dive allowed...18m!

My friend said that actually the key of diving is that you have to feel relaxed in the water. No matter you can swim or not.  I breathe air, yet I love to go down deep and look at the fish that most people don't get to see :) There's much more to life than staying on the ground. So I'm sure you can imagine how happy I can be ^^

Overall, we all had a good rest and relax time at the resort. Nice place, nice people, ok foods :P Thank you all for making my trip happening! ^^

Quote of the day:- 

• It’s better to know and be disappointed, than to never know and always wonder.

• If you spend too long holding on to the one who treats you like an option, you’ll miss finding someone who treats you like a priority.

• Don’t take anything personally. Nothing other people do is because of you, it is because of themselves. 

• I cannot control other people, but I can control if they are in my life or not.

It has been so long since I wrote on this blog that I even forgot the password to get it. I can’t believe it. But today for some reason I feel the need to put in words my thoughts, my feelings.

Life passes by and I’m still thinking what the hell should I do about a lot of things. I know you have never heard me say that word before but it is the plain truth. I’m frustrated with the chain of stuff that rolls over my life as I keep moving along in life. Or am I moving, sometimes I feel stuck.  

I guess it happens to the best of us, we go around life doing what we are supposed to for others and then even more if we love them. But do people tend to take for granted those attentions? I think we all do. I say we, because I’m sure I have done it at times but when it is done to me it is very hard to come up with a long line of excuses to justify the act. I try -I promise- to look the other way, to keep busy with other things, to understand that work, family, studies and everything else can come in the way but in time I have to accept that maybe I’m not being appreciated like I should.

Time to step aside, to give some room and to see what they do to demonstrate if I have a place in their life or not, that’s it. It’s not that I stop caring or loving, it’s just a moment to let things get back to normal. What I give is usually what I want to get back even though I realize it must come from their heart.

I guess all comes up to self-value myself and not be afraid to said it or expect it. When that moment comes I accept is not easy, but is even harder to stay there waiting hoping that they guess my needs. Not too many people can read minds so it is my duty to be clear and to the point, even though I also believe that at times silence can speak volumes both ways. It’s a matter of intuition and who I’m dealing with and for how long I’ve known them.

Let me tell you, outside of business calls I don’t call that many people, I can count them with only one hand. I like to dedicate myself and make relationships grow but I can’t do that with a lot of individuals, so I hand pick them. I can’t also do it if the other person don’t do the same with me.

I hope you understand what I’m saying here; don’t take anyone for granted and don’t let others take you for granted either.